There’s going to be no way to describe today accurately. I can’t do it. Not now, not ever. The words you’re reading merely represent a standing stone to how I experienced God here. Today was a tour through passion week, beginning on the Mount of Olives. Ascending the hill, to our right was Jerusalem with the desert at our left. On the way, we talked about how easy it would’ve been for Jesus to flee into the desert. Bryan told a story of the only time my grandfather had come to Israel. At Gethsemane, in the Basilica of the Agony, Bryan found him face down, prostrate before the Lord. A pastor for decades, it was here that he fully grasped the humanity of Jesus. And it was here that Jesus waited, crying out to His Father, ultimately accepting that he had to “drink the cup” placed before him. With every opportunity to give into the impulse of personal desire, he chose to die for us. As we entered the basilica, I sat and listened to the mass and meditated on the image of Jesus before His Father. And my grandfather before his. That was a powerful moment in my life and my grandfather’s.
Later that day we came to the Church of St. Peter In Gallicantu, the church of the “rooster crowing.” This church was built on the site of where Peter denied Christ, the courtyard of the house of Caiaphas, where Jesus was imprisoned for 24 hours. From the church floor built over the courtyard, we were able to look down into a hole where prisoners charged with capital crimes were held. I could see Jesus there, lowered down into that hole, spit on and abused, hung by shackles on his hands, face against the rock we touched. Down in the hole together, we read Psalm 88, the only psalm not ending in praise to God. We pondered how difficult it must have been for Jesus to find a way to praise God in this dark, lonely place. In that dungeon we sang hymns of thankfulness for the cross. And hymns of disbelief. Why would he do this for us? There I experienced the small, echoed chamber that held our Savior reverberate with the low-note of “tremble” in response to the question, “Were you there when they nailed him to the tree?” I can tell you about it, I can’t describe it, neither that moment in history nor our moment in that hole.
Then we walked the path Christ would have taken to the cross, where He was hung on an olive tree and nailed to a beam. We talked about how His death according to Paul ushered in the end of the old code. The apostle wrestled with the oxymoronic nature of how the “favored of God” could be crucified, a cursed individual rejected by God. Yet Jesus is raised from the dead, and now sitting at the right hand of God. It is a beautiful picture of our reality through Christ: There is nobody so far from God that He cannot reach you.
Finally, in the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, we went to the basement, to an unfinished section of the church where the chiseled rock of the Golgotha quarry is exposed. This was the rock that shook when Christ was raised from the dead. We laid hands on it as a group and sang a glorious song of victory: “Christ The Lord Has Risen Today.” Most of the detail in the site is gone. Destroyed. Built over. Buried by the earth. The mighty palaces have fallen. What’s left? The Living God and the rock face that bore witness. The world that doesn’t know Christ will only see Him through His witnesses. I don’t know how else to summarize this trip. I can tell you what happened here, but I can’t explain it. Everyone in the group went to the same places; none of us had the same experience. But each of us…no, all of us together walked in the footsteps of Jesus.
That’s it, Luke. We did it together. And those events of history and faith became with power a common experience for us uniting us in Christ. Changed we are when we stand in these places. Every time. And, we pray…for all time.
The phone rang early in my Jerusalem hotel room this morning. It was
a friend calling to invite me along on an errand he’d agreed to run in
Hebron. He was to deliver some cash to a family there and wanted
company. As it had been years for me between visits to the south of
the West Bank, I was immediately interested.
We arrived mid-morning to a city teeming with life. A place not
unlike San Francisco with its hilly topography, el-Khalil er-Rahman,
as Hebron is known to the local residents, is a favorite of mine. In
spite of its considerable difficulties, this bustling metropolis has
found the means to survive, even flourish, in hard times. I had many
things on my agenda today: the old city market, the ceramic and glass
blowing industries, and the tomb of the biblical patriarchs and
matriarchs with its extensive Herodian architectural exterior. With
our plans multiplying, my friend and I put off as long as possible the
point of the visit: the delivery of the money.
This turned out to be a mistake. The family did not live in Hebron
after all. In the afternoon we set out on a trail in search of them
that led first to a small town and then, after hiring a driver with a
car with no license plates (!) and pounding for a half an hour on an
unpaved rural path, we arrived at a khirbeh on the edge of the desert.
A khirbeh (“ruin” in Arabic) is a tiny hamlet of 20 to 30 small
houses and yards often built in a circle for common protection of the
homes and their terraced gardens.
We were invited in by a gracious host and treated to the warmest in
village hospitality: sweet tea (qubbaya), continuous rounds of Arabic
coffee and food, and joyful conversation, occasionally punctuated by
long, nervous silences. Minutes turned into hours. And my friend and
I grew anxious to do what we had come to do and get back to Jerusalem
before nightfall. But there seemed to be no way out. Things to do
with money and business are always left until the very last.
As I fiddled with my meal, it occurred to me how linearly I live my
life. Always thinking schedule, checking my watch, what’s next in
line, take care of what I have to do with dispatch and move on. In
the end though, managing to fit in what I want to do. Our hosts were
not like that. They were “circle people.” They lived in circles, sat
and ate in circles. And these circles anchored them, bringing them
back always to what life is lived for. Time meant little in a circle
I thought of the exquisite poetry of the first psalm: the life of the
“wicked,” it says, is of little substance (“like chaff,” 1:4),
endlessly moved about by the winds of time, change and personal
agenda. Not like the tree (1:3), which is deeply rooted in soil and
water. The tree’s life is found in the life-giving environment
beneath it and around it. I remembered the conclusion of the psalm
that the wicked will not have a seat “in a circle of friends” (1:5,
Do you ever find yourself chasing after things that turn out to be
behind you in the end? The older I get the more joy I take in my
family and my friends, both old and new, and in the times behind me
that, though past, offer strength for living. I decided this
afternoon to join the party. To circle back and to enjoy the company
of some really fine people who just wanted to say “thank you” to two
strangers who had brought them a gift.
Sorry folks. The title of my blog today is an obvious rip-off, playing on the name of the famous stage play and feature film (1970) by Robert Anderson, “I Never Sang for My Father.” I confess I missed the film in the 70s (too many other things going on in my 20s…) but saw it recently with my wife in an off-Broadway production. If you missed it too, I’ll describe it briefly. The play hits home for many who struggle through a final season of life with an aging parent. Walls of resentment, bitterness and regret block a college professor’s (Gene Hackman) final attempt to reach his father (Melvyn Douglas) who cannot come to terms with the way his children have lived their lives. Depressing, huh? And what does this have to do with a blog on BibleSettings? Well, read on.
Just this Friday past, I had the wonderful privilege of sitting with my father through the final moments of his life. As my brother and I watched him reach for his last breaths, we held tight to him and to each other, thanking God for the influence of this remarkable man upon his sons. Yeah and, by the way, I did sing for my father. I used to sing a lot in an earlier life. And though the talent was marginal, dad always delighted in whatever I produced. A pastor, he frequently took me along for funerals, weddings and special services to provide music. What in fact he was trying to do was to give opportunity for me “to use what God had given me for His glory.” Things like this were important to dad. “God gives us things, and He expects a good return on his investment,” he’d say. So I sang for my father. And then in 1992, Dad joined me in Israel on one of my trips. It was the first time he’d been out of the country since his service tour in Europe during World War II. Dad, a “homebody,” took a chance that this pilgrimage to Israel guided by his eldest son would yield something for him. What pleasure it gave me to watch dad delight in the sites and sounds of Israel! He struggled a bit to keep up with the physical side of things, but spiritually and biblically, the trip opened up new vistas of understanding for this man who loved the word of God. And then some months later to hear mom describe the changes in dad’s preaching and appreciation of the Bible as a result of that trip? For me, that was heaven. It was like singing for my father all over again.
I wish you could have known this man who was responsible for so many good things about me. But alas, a blog format cannot contain the description. Perhaps the following short biographical sketch which I wrote just this afternoon for his memorial might help a bit. He was such a contrast to the character in Anderson’s play.
John Robert Widbin, 88, native St. Louisan, youngest son of Frank and Bertha (Mueller) Widbin, World War II veteran (European theatre), successful businessman, loving son, brother, husband, father, grandfather, and great-grandfather, and treasured by countless friends throughout the world, passed from this earth into the presence of his Lord on Friday, July 20th.
Though Bob had no formal ministerial training, at great effort he became a superb pastor, theologian, and churchman in the truest sense of the terms, serving three congregations over more than a half century of ministry. More importantly, together with his beloved wife, Lois, he loved God and served Him with a passion that reached unfathomable proportions in faithfulness to Christ, uncompromising devotion to the Church, and an availability to people that defies description. Many owe their livelihood, their marriages, the well-being of their families, even their very lives to his well-timed intervention and compassionate influence. No one could have known Bob ‘just a little bit.’ To know him was to know him well, for he shared his inner life and his radiant smile so naturally. Even advancing years could not erode his spirit. Surprisingly, they left him free of bitterness and regret. He lived his later years as he had his earlier: youthfully and vigorously attending to others. And in the end he faced his eternal destiny confidently and without fear.
We shall miss him terribly. He simply was one of those remarkable individuals who just made everyone and everything better. The work he leaves behind lives in eternity.
That is the kind of person I want to be as the years catch up with me. Maybe this week you take a good look at the influences for good upon your life? Whether a relative, a friend, a teacher, a parent. Be that kind of person for those who come behind you. And don’t forget to sing for your father while you can.
When I finish guiding a group in Israel, normally my habit is to spend a bit of time looking around on my own. My June trip this summer was no exception. After seeing the group off at the airport, I returned to Jerusalem and wandered down to one of the city’s most historic parts, The City of David, original Jerusalem. An appropriate spot to do some looking around, for at the foot of this hill, at its lowest level, are the Herodian banks of the Pool of Siloam. This is the place, according to John 9, where a man without vision was once sent by Jesus to wash his eyes and be healed of his blindness. I tried to imagine what first sight looked like for a man blind from birth. And then it happened to me. Sort of. In a very familiar place to me, my eyes opened. And I saw something new.
Excavations near the Pool of Siloam have recently revealed an underground sewer system from second temple times where waters flushed from the temple mount once coursed down through the Tyropoean valley to the confluence of Jerusalem’s wadis. What makes the discovery especially significant is that this tunnel was constructed for more than just drainage. It was intended to serve as an emergency escape route from the temple fortress above in case of a perilous situation on the platform. Such an emergency did in fact arise in the year, AD 70, when Rome moved to put an end to the Jewish revolt that had dragged on into its fourth year. Invited by workers to enter this underground system and move upward along its course to the mount above, I thought of the role this tunnel had played in the fall of Jerusalem and imagined the events occurring around me had I been there on those fateful days in August so long ago.
In the summer of AD 70, Roman general Flavius Titus launched a devastating assault with four legions against Jerusalem and its temple. For months, Jewish Zealots fought bravely, managing to fend off every attack thrown at them. But finally, hopelessly outnumbered, the situation grew impossible for the defenders, and on August 28 (the 9th of Av), battering rams broke into the inner wall of the temple. Roman forces poured through the breach onto the esplanade burning and looting at will. The defeated Zealots broke ranks and, with no other course left to them, fled into the emergency tunnel in a desperate attempt to escape. The attacking legionaries pursued them mercilessly and for nearly two days rooted out the fugitives from their hiding places in the sewers below. As attested by archaeology, the carnage that ensued was unimaginable.
While walking the uphill course of that tunnel, I was haunted by thoughts of those terrible days. Though dazed by their reality, however, I sensed strangely that I might be, in a way, reversing history. And I was not doing it alone. Others climbed with me. Those Jews of old were there, returning to the kingdom they had built, if ever so briefly, with their ideals and resolve. And on a climb that increasingly took on metaphorical proportions, others were there as well, climbing to the Kingdom of God above.
I thought of the group that I had just finished guiding through Israel. Most of the members were East Europeans and Eurasians serving God in the former Soviet states. For sure, theirs is an uphill climb. Enemies abound. Attrition is high. The odds are against them. Still faithfully they trudge on, day after day, year after year, believing that work for the Kingdom must survive. I thought of others in the West walking with them on this journey. And I rejoiced in a cherished ministry that God has given me to climb in the company of dedicated servants like these.
After some time underground I emerged exhilarated on the Herodian street above. I knew what I had to do then. I found my way through tears to the so-called “Wailing Wall” a short distance away to pray for fellow-climbers on our journey. Perhaps you are one for whom I prayed. If so, may God uphold you as you climb, strengthen your gait, and quicken your step. Be encouraged. You are not alone. It is indeed uphill to the Kingdom. But the company is good. And the course is certain.
With Thanksgiving just around the corner, I find my thoughts drifting already to that most wonderful of all holidays. In my mind though, the modern version can’t keep pace with its ancient counterpart. No, I’m not referring to the 17th century colonial American first pilgrim harvest. I am speaking about a Thanksgiving that makes the one observed in the Plymouth Colony look recent by comparison: The First-Fruits Festival in ancient Israel. Let me give you a quick tour.
We’ll pick it up more than twenty-five hundred years ago in a Galilean village at the end of the spring harvest. For more than five weeks, weather-beaten farmers have gathered the cereal crop. And now they join together with their families for the week-long pilgrimage to their capital city, Jerusalem. People from other villages along the way will join in and make the trek with them. Nights on the road will be filled with singing and dancing and an endless string of campfire stories. Soon they will arrive in Jerusalem and camp east of the city on the Mount of Olives.
The evening before festival, ovens are built and fires set to prepare fresh-baked barley loaves, two to a family. These from the grains of those first sheaves harvested. It is the best of the crop. Next morning they will deposit the loaves in their baskets and make the descent into the city.
They will enter the eastern gate near the spring, walking together in family units through the city and then uphill into the palace precincts. The King will stand before them there arrayed in purple and red-violet, gold and silver articles of rank hanging from the edges of his garment.. He looks to be what he is: The visible manifestation of the invisible God of Israel. The people follow him then in tribal order from the palace platform up the hill and right into the temple courts.
The wait on-line will seem endless as each family prepares to go before the priest in the outer court. But only the father of each family may draw near him. The other members will wait behind to hear his confession. Listen carefully. It is important.
“My Father was a wandering Aramean. He went down into Egypt and became a great nation. But the Egyptians treated us harshly… Then we cried out to the Lord in our misery. And the Lord brought us out of Egypt with a mighty hand and an outstretched arm. He brought us to this place and gave us this land. And now I bring the first-fruits of the soil that YOU, O Lord, have given me.” Deuteronomy 26:5-10
Doesn’t sound much like a Thanksgiving prayer, does it? Isn’t Thanksgiving about being thankful for what we have? And no Turkey!? The pilgrims would have been appalled. And what’s all of this about Arameans, oppressions, and rescues?
Well, this confession was a really big deal in ancient Israel. It was the key to being and becoming again, every harvest, the people of God, rather than just another people with stuff. Thanksgiving was about more than just being grateful. It was about setting a priority on HOW Israel would be grateful. At harvest time, when the blessings of life were so visible, there was a subtle temptation to focus on WHAT one has, rather than WHERE it comes from. And that mistake is the essence of idolatry.
For Israel, the trick was to express gratitude in the right way: As a PRAISING PEOPLE, not just as a thankful people. Did you know that the Hebrew language doesn’t have a word for “thank you.” Middle easterners find “thanks” rather offensive. It is looked upon as a subtle way of drawing attention to the one giving it, rather than honoring the one receiving it. As an expression of gratitude, “thank you” would have come across to the biblical peoples as cheap and miserly. Here are some of the ways that middle easterners express gratitude: “May God bless your hands which have given me this gift.” “No one has ever been so kind to me.” “May God hear your every prayer.” These expressions elevate the giver, not the receiver or the gift.
Israel also expressed gratitude by being A GIVING PEOPLE. So often our Thanksgivings become more about getting, whether it is a big meal, football fun, or just a day off. Our Thanksgiving can be the most gluttonous day of the year. But for Israel, as God had given everything, the people celebrated Him by giving back generously, hilariously, and outrageously. Theologians call this “imitating God.”
Finally, Israel expressed its gratitude by being A CONTENTED PEOPLE. “Blessing” is a funny word. In Hebrew we have two words for it. One, barukh, has to do with transfers from one to another out of priority for the other. But the other word, ‘ashrei, cannot be transferred. It refers to the blessing we enjoy when we live with the right priorities for ourselves and about those things we own. This kind of “blessing,” or “contentment, is enjoyed we are fully conscious of how little we really need, rather than how much we could to want.
May I encourage you this Thanksgiving to think about those ancient Israelites and that weird harvest celebration of days gone by? Confess your praise for the Giver rather than offering thanks for the gift. Imitate God by giving ridiculously rather than stockpiling more and more for yourself. And do find contentment whatever your present circumstances in the love and compassion of God, rather than longing for things that cannot satisfy.
If you will do that, you will truly be grateful.
A curious thing occurred in our intensive Hebrew class this August (see previous blog “August Language”). The first day of the course was the first day of the solar month (August, 2011), which coincided interestingly with the first day of the lunar month, called Av by ancient and modern Jews. While not unheard of, this concurrence is quite rare in calendrical cycles. I could recall no other occurrence of the phenomenon in my nearly forty years of teaching Hebrew.
Now I tend to be sensitive to these threads of coincidence and so announced to our class on that morning that beginning a course at the beginning of both a solar and lunar month was not something to be casually ignored. You see, the first day of the lunar month, or “New Moon” (cf. Amos 8:5), was held sacred by the ancients and so was free of human work. It was set aside specially for God as a reminder that all time was granted by the Eternal One. Beginning a month with this recognition was supposed to awaken worshipers to the reality that the entire month ahead and everything in it was a precious gift, not ultimately fragile and frustrating, but something for which to be grateful for its potential and opportunity.
And so to consecrate our class and set it apart, as time had already done so, we wanted to observe a very ancient Jewish tradition. We would post a mezuzah on the door of our classroom. Mezuzah means “doorjamb.” Tradition holds that every Jewish home must be marked on its primary doorjamb with a small container holding a rolled parchment inscribed by a professional Sopher (scribe) with the text of Deuteronomy 6:4-9 and 11:13-21 (note especially 6:6,9). The tradition recalls the slavery of the people of God in Egypt when they painted the entrance of their tents with lamb’s blood to protect them from the plagues. The blood distinguished the residents as God’s people under His protection throughout the chaos. Today, the mezuzah is used to designate a faithful home, a place where God dwells and where the human residents live as members of His family. It is placed on the right frame angled inward toward the opening. Those passing through touch the container and kiss their fingers as an expression of devotion to the One who dwells therein.
For our Hebrew class, we wanted to show that as the entrance of our experience had been timed sacred by the calendar, so the entrance to our classroom (the doorjamb) would sanctify our gathering. We would depend on God throughout our course to help us. We would honor each other not just as classmates and teacher, but as partners on the journey and as those called by God to this place at this time. Our God is a God of Firsts. He calls us to be faithful first, at the beginning of times and seasons and at the entrance to places. We are not to wait to commit until we are convinced. We commit first as an act of devotion, ready to believe, ready to trust, and ready to experience the Divine Presence whatever circumstances may arise along the way.
On our mezuzah was the Hebrew letter Shin. Looks much like the capital “W” in our script. This letter has tremendous significance in several ways. First, Shin is the initial letter in one of God’s earliest names, Shaddai. God says that He revealed Himself to the fathers and mothers of Israel by this Name (Exodus 6:1-2). Second, Shin is the first letter of the first word of the scroll contained inside: Shma, “Hear.” This word in Hebrew connotes obedience. Remember that obedience is required as a first step before the experience can be enjoyed. And finally, the orthodox today see three uprights in the appearance of the Shin, like our “W.” The outer uprights represent the members of the family inside the door. The center upright, joining the outer uprights, represents God. He is the Center of family life. It is He who makes an assortment of individuals into a community. It is He who makes our gathering sacred. He turns it from a house of boards and beams into a home where human life is valued and where people treat each other with love and concern. Jewish people never leave their mezuzot behind when they move. They take them along to every new place for every new season of life. Think about that when you begin something new. Beginnings can be stressful. But we have the assuring company of a loving Savior and the fellowship of one another–especially at the entrance to things.
I tend to think that I’ve seen it all after almost four decades of learning, research, and guiding in the lands of the Bible. Often, folks will ask if I get bored with the “same old.” And then, every trip reminds me again of how wonderfully new each experience is. Ongoing archaeological surveys and analysis present new opportunities constantly. And the past decade of reconstruction gives new meaning to even the most familiar of stops. But more than this, it is the people who join me on these excursions and our encounters with the peoples of this land that furnish the most wondrous of surprises. Boredom is hardly possible.
A recent reminder of this came with our July group just completed. Who could have imagined that after at least thirty boat rides with groups on the Kinneret (Sea of Galilee), this time crew and travelers would join together on board in dance to the strains of Hava Nagila (“Come On, Let’s Party!”). And party we did! We docked in Tiberius exhausted and exhilarated. And then there was Mary, a public school Latin teacher and student of Greek and Hebrew. Having taught the Bible seriously to students of all ages for years, Mary said she felt that she’d just begun to learn the biblical lessons of history and faith now seen through the lens of the eastern Mediterranean world. Mary, your enthusiasm for this tour encouraged me greatly that none of us has “seen it all.” I suppose that is the theme of this final summer trip 2008: Whoever you are, whatever your circumstance or experience, God has something new and deeper for you here in His land. Please consider joining me soon.
Before signing off, a quick thanks to all of those who made this trip sing: Martin and Dianna, Jay and Susan, Trevor and Kate, and of course, my faithful friend and colleague of many years, Adel. You guys are second only to those dearest to me who love me unconditionally while I’m away in my “other life.” Karen, Lydia and Zach, I love you too!
As always, the weather is warm in mid-summer Jerusalem as I study and rest between summer groups. Though a dry climate here, one looks for the shade whenever possible. The flora of this land holds secrets that, when discovered, can benefit us pedestrians. Many of the trees in Israel make adjustments to the climate by developing miraculous mechanisms for retaining moisture—even in the five to six months of the year when it doesn’t rain. Standing under the Tamarisk at midday as it showers its abundance of dew on the guest under its branches is better than any air-conditioning system can afford. The flora of Israel reminds me again that even in these dry months, our experiences in this land live vibrantly in the hearts of those who come.
Our first group was just delightful. Never can I remember in nearly 30 years of guiding in the Middle East a group more diverse in age and circumstance than this one. Sherri and Igor brought their sons, Christopher (10) and Zachary (8). I learned many years ago not to underestimate the age level at which one can be held captive by this wondrous land and the world of the Bible that it still reflects. Chris and Zach were at my side all of the way with questions and thoughtful observations that helped me through their eyes to see old sites in new ways. Thanks so much, boys! This old guide will never forget you. And then there was Maxine (we’ll leave the age out of this one). A mature believer and willing pilgrim, she did every walk and every site with enthusiasm. The younger among us were encouraged by her quick steps and our frequent reminders to one another that “Maxine did it!” Thank you, Maxine, for you militant optimism, refusing to miss out on anything that God had for you in Israel. To all of you, as you expressed your gratitude so lovingly to me on our last evening together, may God give you in the new perspective you have gained a closer and more faithful walk with Christ.
And then for those of you who have never been to Israel or have come with me at other seasons, consider a summer trip! Along with the typical seasonal activities like swimming daily and boating, I promise you that your life will be refreshed as you experience the lands of Jesus and prophets. God will “get a mortgage on your soul” and you will surely return.